shuoot, i've just lost 51% of my guts !

hell no.

What has happened?

All of a sudden, I feel gray, hopeless, incompetent !

(hmmn, I guess it didn't happen 'all of a sudden')

I suppose it is time to get up from my own sweet dreams and realize that I'm living in a matter-of-fact a money-oriented, appearance judging and grades evaluating earth.

How great !

I hope the oh-so-clever minister's and world leaders would be tremendously pleased when every 5 out of 10 teenagers fly of skyscrapers every 24 hours.

The line from the Singaporean movie "I Not Stupid Too" popped up in my mine just in time.

We're not rotten apples !!!
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Sometimes,
I really wonder...

Am I stooopid or what?
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What-ever my teachers teach in class (except for English, Moral, PE, and easy stuffs),
I have NO CLUE what the heck they are saying.

It is like some alien invasion and some strange creatures speaking freakin unknown language.

I'm all okay with this. I mean, P-E-LEASE lah...
It comes in from the right, pooff, out from the left.

The problem is :

Fellow earthlings here, seems to be really connected to these.
Sometimes, it kinda makes me feel intimidated.
And makes me feel foolish.

p/s : don't know who 'earthlings' are, means you're stoooopid...
welcome to the gang. Free membership.

don't mind me, I'm becoming miss nutty yong soon.
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I know that I'm not dumb.
Gosh ! If I were, I won't be blogging here with loyal blog fans (aaaheermm, ;p) (although it's just a few of them) checking out my blogs on and off.

Just like some people who are super brilliant in school and life, rich and have good looks often claim themselves as people with so-called depression which obviously is what their evil inner has caused them to be.
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If I could I would hypnotize myself and make myself feel as if I'm invisible and wouldn't care much about what others think and say about me.

How I wish I could.
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Come on !
Face the fact !

How many of us can actually be so confident all the time?
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I believe that only we, ourselves can get us out of the situations like these.

Friends and families can be a major support system.
Yet, the problems is from mua, thus, it is me to overcome them.
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I know I will come back to the time where I will respect myself for being the not-so-smart girl who flunked all her science subjects, who does nothing but sit and sleep at home, and the one who is basically too selfish to give a damn on others.

Just that, I'm not sure when.
Ohh, I am actually admiring the pathetic me now for self-expressing.

Uggguuhh.

Excuse me please.

My 51% guts have been replaced by 51% of nuts.
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CRACKERS ! man !
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Life first.
Live life.
And don't you stop for anyone.

-Sabine, Rice Rhapsody-
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