ijusthatesomuchiloveyou

grabbed from girl that i admire from jclim's links.

The best is yet to come,
and baby wont it be fine
You think you've seen the sun,
but you ain't seen it shine.

ignore the first two lines
its the last two that means

for what i know
i am in a very confused stage
and nothing more
i don't know julia
i don't understand myself
i don't even know what i want
and that kills

from jclim : being emo is not fun
not fun at all

me wanna start class!
me wanna start class!

how i wish tomorrow is 8oct
being around with muah sayang, dgays, and my felloU5'ers.

i just want to go to college,
do assignments
and study
now!!!!!!??????

sitting, waiting, wishing

A little browse through the good'ol days.
I still have tons of pictures.
Too many.
Just picked a few that is in groups.
:D

enjoy.

March 2004

Our first ever karaoke trip.

Phantom of the Opera mini drama competition - Form 3 (I think)

27th June 2004
A bunch of 15 year olds wanna pick a fight!

OMY & SayLi's 15th Birthday Barbeque Party.

17th June 2005
Our first largest gang trip to Genting.

26th June 2005
I supposed it was somebody's birthday!!??

7th August 2005
hahahahhahahaa! who would forget this.
largest party in KLCC ever.

January 2006
HSL's 17th!!!

31st May 2006
Yet again - the unforgettable memory in Teluk Intan.
Cik Nalle's Wedding

21st June 2006
Frog Dissection!!!!!

30th June 2006
PBC Bubble Milk Tea Day!
acting cutesy
m-e-e-e-a-w.

10th November 2006
Tanjung Girls

CM & Beaniez

18th December 2006
Celebration of RE's 17th

13th March 2007
SPM results released.

?? 2007
Back in school for PBC's first ever 'independent' event

15th Septmeber 2007
Meeting up with the girls at the Curve

I miss you girls
so much
so much.

and missing you girls
makes me
miss myself.

If you never knew
what elephants
means to me -
it's
happiness.

no string attached

do you remember when was the last time you parted with someone you loved?
have you ever felt that you are not good enough for a certain someone?

you know the most cruel thing about being in love,
is that you hold back,
never wanting that someone to know who you really are,
because you are afraid that he/she might not like it,
and that's all you've got.

did you know how long i took to suit the life,
after graduating high school :
when every single day,
i see, i laugh, i talk, i quarrel,
with my girls.

we hardly see each other,
we hardly talk,
now,
i miss them.

yet
i know they are always there.
we are so far,
but still so close.

have you been so attached to another individual,
so very close to each other,
and all of a sudden,
it's all gone,
even the memories are fading.

i miss him too.

do you know that i am so afraid of losing another,
that i've locked myself.

everybody hurts.
yea. i know perfectly well about that.
i choose
not to let it get to me,
again.

selfish?
cowardice?
what-ever it may be.
this is what i have become.

when your heart is screaming in pain,
but you couldn't even shear a tear.
would you know what to do?

i don't.
and
i am afraid.

of being attached
emotionally
to someone
again.

because when the bond breaks,
me and you,
will be
so close,
yet
so far.

and i can't bear it.

time flies

OK,
I'm a freak who likes to look back at the good'ol days.
Not that it's a bad thing!!!???

from endless quarrellings and disagreements
to a successfully done festival.
oh well, maybe not that successful,
but we tried our freak'in best, aint!?


HahahhahhHH!!!
my emcee partner!

aoaaawwwwe,
our very own Pres Fan smiling away
(OMG! most of my blog post has her appearance!)
seeeeeee, free publicity for you
wuaakhakhakhaahkahha

we learn.
we gained friends.
we had our time.
we grew,
together.

the best place ever!

life's never been better for a shop-a-holic

smilling away loving mua area!
I am so not gonna move to Bandar Utama.

Seriously, Pavillion KL is like a combination of 1U, MV, Sunway (without ice skating) & TS (without the indoor theme park)!

ahahahahahhhhahHH!HHH!!!
look at the shoppppppss!!!!!

ZOMFG!

and TWO freak'in TopShops!!!!

hell crazy! 3 Esprit!!!

and there's Bossini!!!!
and their number 1 fan vacuuming.
:P

p/s :
kena ffk today -
don't worry pavillion!
i'll be bacK!
muaahahhahahh!
dead am i obsessed with a mall!!!????

$#%^O@({(%((*!!#$%&^

the great escape!

There is this quote
oh-so-famous one by the telephone-man
"When one door closes, another opens;
but we often look so long and regretfully upon the closed door
that we do not see the one which has opened for us."
I hate to admit this
but somehow
it is so real.

I never realized that
until today.

That there are many people
who are more willing
to sacrifice
and do anything
for me.

I may not have seen one that has opened for me
but I have seen one
one full of passion
one bringing me smiles
by just being that door.

I love you all!
XOXO!

At First

At first you feel like crying

and beg God to dry your tears

You sit and reminisce

of all the good times

You stare at him across the empty spaces

and block that you still care

But you're still in love with the way

he runs his fingers through his hair

And when you're sick of crying

but you know you feel the same

You might stop feeling miserable

and instead hand him the blame

You'll tell him that you hate him

he'll have nothing left to say

You finally think it's over

and that this must be the end

But then one day your heart stops

as he holds his new girlfriend

And you force yourself to realize

that in time you'll be okay

And the feelings that you felt at first

will slowly fade away. . . .

never thought

I can only go 'wow'.
I never thought that things could go so well!
Things really is rock'in!!!!
besides being fed sooooooo well lately,
(everyone knows I love to eat)
bohahhahahhahha!
I got more stuffs!

Ping Yi got me this bear.

My mama & popo gave me cash.

RE got me these two cute little froggies.

Kheng Yi gave me (my addiction) Roxy sweater!!

Funniest thing of all!!!
My mama got me this musical tea pot.

I was like : "ZOMG! fer wut!?"
She went : "to cheer you up"

booohahhahahahhah!!!!
I'll be getting my Nikon D40 soon.

and then, it's Hong Kong!!!
(muahahahhahahhha!!!!)

Let's hope there's more where it came from.
:P
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The heart of mine
had been scattered
and slashed
into million pieces.

No one realized,
he took one a piece
threw it away
and never will
the heart of mine
be complete.

The heart of mine
is being bandage.
They are trying
their best
to stop it
from bleeding.

Every wound
every cut
will heal eventually.

Maybe
I
myself
never realized
it was that deep.

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XOXO!
people.

Don't worry about me, just shower me with more gifts and pressies!
muahahahhahahaha!!!

Love Is

Brighter Than Sunshine
-Aqualung-

For some certain reasons,
I just love this song.

I never understood before
I never knew what love was for
My heart was broke, my head was sore
What a feeling

I got a feeling in my soul....

back in action

I was born
to learn
to grow
to expand
to love
to create
to enjoy
to see the beauty in all things
including myself.

but I was not born
to be perfect.

and that makes me who I am
Yong Julia

Underwater World with HSL

This is like serious shell funny!
I was laughing like heaven away reading this!


Be Bean. . .Be Linggy. . .Be Me <<<--- click

don't worry girls,
ain't easy for the fishers to fish around with me no more.

p/s : I'm still under anti-men stage. (wuahahahhahhahahha!!!!!)

Surviving A Break-Up (in 10 days)

boooohaaahahhahah!!!

these are the things I did since I've been single again.

Day 1 :

Cried the hell out of myself the moment he said 'the words'.
Sit down hugging Kayi's human-sized pink soft doggy.
Being discovered by my popo. (we even made a deal that she'll keep it a secret)
Sat in the kitchen. (crying again)
Talked to girl friends!
Talked to guy friends!
Talked to (ex) boy friend.
Went to the mall - had 'Love in Every Bite' Cornetto ice-cream.
Went to secret recipe - had chocolate banana cake.
Barbeque party at family home.
Ate lots of sotongs. (white ones)
Had birthday cake.
Dad pat my back and fell asleep.
Received sms'es by RE, Princess, Gaston, Jason. (my ultimate support system)

Day 2 :

(okay.... I couldn't recall)

Day 3 :

Okay, its human nature, and I'm a girl - cried again.
Hang around with my pals.
Went for lecture.
Received sms'es by friends who saw me with a muka mau mati. (really unexpectedly)
Mr.Geh treated McD.
Talked with Jason. (peace people, peace)
Arcade! horse ride - air hockey - some Jurassic thing - fake bowling & basketball - hitting game - push and pull thing - whatever those are called.
Laugh till I had stomach cram.
Listening to emo-angry songs during Johans'.
Stamping my feet and jumping up and down.
Got 5 fingers head smacked.
A long talk with Edward.

Day 4 :

Faced the feelings in my heart instead of fighting it.
Wrote some 'love letters'. (bohhahhahahahha)
Met Jason. (unexpectedly)
Talked to my best partner in class.
Went home alone. (while listening to emo-sad love songs)
Had Peking Duck! (break-up 'surprise' from my aunt)
Break-up present - some doggie plushie.

Day 5 :

Talked to the pro couples in class.
Went all the way to GreenBox.

Day 6 :

Sat at home all day doing flash.
Shared emo-sad love songs with Ludwig.
Listened to love songs from the Philippines.
Baskin Robbins!!!!!
(supposed to go Putrajaya) was emo + tired + lazy.

Day 7 :

(was supposed to watch movies with RE & Hs.Loong) was still emo + tired + lazy
Had some special duck at Sunrise.
1U! Bought shoes and shorts!
Watched TV all day long.
Had Korean for dinner.
Silly stories from aunt and popo.
Manicure and Pedicure. (pamper yourself!)

Day 8 :

BSC! (did stuffs) and Coca!
Heroes marathon on StarWorld.
Seafood!
Movies.Movies.and more movies.

Day 9 :

MidValley! (did stuffs)
Swimming!
Family dinner!

and here I am now.

Day 10 :

Don't know what I will do.
But I've never been better.
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Things you might not know :

I couldn't eat. I couldn't sleep. All I did was procrastinating. Thinking and missing him. Dreaming pathetically how he'll come back to me pleading that he needs me. Wishing I can turn back time. Reminiscing the happy times we had. Partly blaming myself for not loving him enough. Disappointed with what I've done. Scolding myself for being who I am now. Pointless aimlessly sat at home. and so much more sad and depressing things.

But never did I hurt myself physically.
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Family and friends are always the most important.
I had a bunch of friends, supporting me all the way.
and my family who snap me out of my depressing, stupid, lifeless situation.

Life is good!
Enjoy!