race against time

At times,
I really wished I can turn back time and make time stop.

It is so often that we regret for what we did, and what we did not.
Not sure whether it is just me or does everyone else feel the same.
I fret too much about the past.
Feeling so insecure about what I've done, what I've said, how I've reacted and so-on.

Every night, it has become a routine for me to flashback and analyze whatever that had happen that day.

People would always tell me that it's over. They'll say :
" Just let it be"
" Move On"
" Stop Worrying"
"There's nothing to do with you"
"Whatever happened, HAPPENED"

I would think about what they told me.
Yet, I couldn't let go so easily.

I could ! but if I would just let everything be, and not be anxious about the trouble and difficulties I caused.

The same thing might happen again.

Others, who don't know me, might think that I lead a miserable life of self-doubting.

I'd say loudly :
I would be living a much devastating life,
if i would just keep cool about everything.

I'd 'fight' time all the time, in whatever I do.

I believe.
When the time comes,
I will grow and learn something.